Get Tired of Chasing Your Own Tail!
Key Lesson: The divided mind -- driven by desire, as it is -- is very similar to a dog that has learned to throw its own stick. It cannot come to a rest until it has exhausted itself, and even then it can't let go of what it feels compelled to chase.
Why Desires Never Satisfy
To be a human being is to seek. When we start out in life, we have a longing to look for something that will answer whatever it is that has come into us that says it needs something in order to complete itself. And so we go through our lives in a continual dance of being filled with something that needs an answer, and then going out and finding that answer... only to find out that our answer wasn't quite the answer. Then, as we bring to ourselves whatever we thought we needed, and as we actually see that it doesn't fulfill us, the desire inside of us that wanted this answer changes.
Slowly but surely, we reach the point where we understand that this movement of the part inside of us that always has what it needs in mind is itself not the basis for providing an answer. Rather, it turns out to be the basis of our dissatisfaction.
If we're interested in spiritual things, we gradually realize that what we really need is to understand this nature that seems to be a bottomless basket... because there is no peace it! Every time we find the peace that it promises by answering a desire -- this movement that comes into us -- then we go here and there, and we always wind up eventually with the feeling of sand running through our fingers... if not by the object of our desire actually falling apart, then by the very nature of time.
The very vibration of desire is in time. It is a form. And because it is matter, its grip begins to loosen. As it loosens its grip, we find ourselves wanting to get rid of whatever we were holding onto.
Eventually we reach the point where we start to realize that we are not going to find peace, contentment, happiness, strength, or fearlessness -- all of the things that in our heart of hearts we wish we had -- outside of us. It just isn't there. That may sound like a simple idea, but we have to go through thousands of painful experiences before we start to realize that it's not a matter of looking for completion in the wrong places, but that there is something in us that doesn't know what it's looking for even though it says it does! When we begin to see this truth, a completely new stage in our journey begins.
Because of the way this beautiful universe -- run by a beautiful Intelligence -- works, we then run into what it is that we begin to understand. First it was these individual desires, individual selves, the "I's" that had to have what they called on to complete themselves. Then, slowly, we realize that there must be something that can complete the whole of that nature -- not the things it calls out that need to be completed, but to bring to fruition the entire process that will put to peace that nature we have been subjected to because we have been asleep to how divided it is when we are in its hands.