Part 1
It is a distinct stage in the development of the aspirant when -- rather than being easily distracted by some imagined consolation for his pain, or by concluding who is to blame for it -- his first and real preference in the moment is to increase his consciousness of his condition, and not to find ways around it.
Part 2
Every flood begins with a single raindrop -- that becomes streams of surging water -- whose combined might can wash away even the mountain down which they careen. All dark rampaging interior states begin with a single moment of unconsciously identifying with a negative reaction -- that soon becomes a torrent of tormenting thoughts and feelings -- whose collective sense of self serves to carry you off to an impending doom.