Finally after 47 years I understand and feel the desire to understand the difference between the true self and the false self, and to clean up my life and my mind. When my mind starts to wander (which is almost all the time), I practice bringing myself back to the present moment. I am committed and really want to do this. However, I am feeling quite anxious and lost each day. A lot of uncomfortable feelings are surfacing and I don't understand any of them. Is it my false self that is yet again deceiving me and enjoying my anxiety? I genuinely do not understand what is happening to me. Normally I feel connected to life; at the moment I don't feel anything except fear.
Anytime we step into unknown territory, such as you have initiated through your decision to try and rise above former self-limiting patterns, we necessarily encounter what has been holding us down. This is why most people never even begin the inward journey; they are able to make "peace" with the very parts of themselves that are intent on stealing their possibility for awakening to real Life.
But, for some of us, there is no peace possible with having realized all the known paths lead us nowhere save round and round. So, in a word, have no fear over the newly surfacing fears and doubts. These predator thoughts and feelings want to keep you corralled... to ensure you remain under their influence. The good news is they have no real power other than to temporarily make us feel bad about our situation... and even this power is given to them (by us) as we resist this feeling we don't want.
There are necessary stages to any journey, and this is one of them: seeing that who we have been doesn't work, and having no feeling whatsoever about who we are going to be should we walk away from that "self." The main thing is to persist with your willingness and work to bring yourself back into the present moment, what I call the "Presence" moment... because within that Light of awareness, within you, lives the Intelligence and Good that has called you to this journey. And I can promise you, in spite of how dark things may seem at times, the Powers that invite us to a New Life ensure our arrival IF we will stay the course.
Everything changes; remember this truth and stay within the awareness of it even as it feels like nothing is changing. Only there, in that remembrance of new Aim, will you see that who you are is changeless.