I know these are painful times. There is no way around that, and neither should you seek this way "out," even if things were suddenly "worked out" in this situation.

Everything depends upon what a man wants. Everything he receives are the fruits of these desires. If we don't like the "taste" of what life yields, we must stop the wasteful actions of blaming and hating what has developed and see that there is something at work within us that is always the seed of this suffering. If we ignore this fact, we do so at our own peril and essentially guarantee that we will repeat our mistakes. If we are willing to learn from what happens to us, then we must release our resistance to the event and be willing to bear the vision before us as only it can teach us -- show us -- why what has transpired has gone the way it has.

All conscious self-healing is painful, but proves its purpose. All running from ourselves -- lamenting our situation instead of dying to the self that got us into it -- is not only painful, but can never do anything but forward its own darkened purpose, which is to ensure we remain unseeing and in suffering.

Now you must choose. Do you run around -- physically, mentally, emotionally -- hoping to restore what had to have been flawed from the beginning (or it would not be as it is now), or -- do you sit back, remember that your true wish is for freedom in God's Life, and await guidance from this Light? Do you suffer unconsciously for what will amount to nothing gained no matter what comes because of your thrashing about, or do you begin the work of letting go and consciously suffering the death of who you have been up until now?