For some years I have had problems with sleep. I fall asleep but awaken after a couple of hours and have difficulty going back to sleep. I have had all the sleep tests to eliminate physical problems. It seems that since I began my attempts at self-awareness and meditation, the situation has worsened. I can lie there even with what seems like a quiet mind, or at other times asking for understanding of the problem, and nothing seems to work. I suspect an underlying tension that I just can't perceive. I was hoping you may have some insight into this that can help.
As we work to awaken ourselves, practice letting go of what steals our natural energies, the whole of our body (physical and otherwise) begins undergoing certain "organic" changes. In many ways, a new vessel is being prepared to receive ever-new and more subtle energies... so that the process of transformation can go on uninhibited by past physical and psychological constraints. The "outcome" of this change in our consciousness is that many things take place that can't be understood through comparison to old models. Sleeplessness is (or may be) just one of the many forms of these ongoing results. The main thing is to have no fear or concern for what is happening to you as long as you remain true to your wish to be made anew. We cannot know what we will "become" -- we must only agree to be what God would have us go through as a natural outcome of being the embodiment of our wish.