There are in existence, as part of creation, extraordinary primordial opposites. We know them as darkness and light, expansion and contraction, attraction and resistance. We don't know anything about resistance. What we know is to be ruled by resistance in our lives, instead of recognizing it as being part of a creative force meant for us to develop.
Have you ever had a moment like this? Someone says something to you, and you start to feel anger towards them for having said it. In that split second, you are in pain. The moment that you don't want the weather to be what the weather is, you are in pain. The moment you wish you lived someplace else other than where you live, you are in pain. Why are you in pain? Because there is this moment in which you have compared how things are with how they should be, what that ought to do, how this should work out, and you say, "This isn't right!"
In that moment, you are in a state of resistance. You are resisting your own mind's conclusions. And in order to escape this pain, you set out now find a new way to please yourself because of your unwanted condition. What is your unwanted condition? It is self resisting self, state resisting state. In the resistance is the pain, in the pain is the motivation to seek the pleasure -- the pleasure being in the object of the very field that you're trying to escape -- and you escape nothing. You simply recreate the same unwanted conditions, over and over again.
Before anything can be released, it first reaches the greatest moment of resistance. You can see it when you look at a flower. Just before that bud opens, the resistance is at the absolute greatest point. But when you reach the greatest point of resistance, pain tells you what to do, and you turn from it, so that you never have the experience of being released.
When you exercise to build up a muscle, you reach a certain point where you have to go past what the muscle wants. Resistance grows, and finally there's a moment in which there's great pain. At that point the muscle has gone as far as it can, and if you're wise, you know not to harm yourself. You realize it has broken down, and in that moment of destruction, new construction is possible. New pathways develop. It is the exact same thing spiritually.
You want to be a different kind of human being, you want to stop doing the things you know you ought not do, but the minute you even think about venturing outside your comfort zone, you feel fear and resistance. That resistance has always been the turning point for you, because you dread what you expect. And when you resist your own negative expectation, what else can happen for you? Nothing new!
But if you can understand that the pain is associated with that resistance born of negative expectation, you can stand in the spiritual gym, the gym of the soul. You can let God's light come along and exercise you, which is what it wants to do. It wants to continually reveal to you where it is that unseen, unconscious fields exist within you whose very structure has created a counterpart in the physical world, and that the resistance you feel is going to occur over and over again. And you can start to consciously suffer the pain that resistance produces instead of unconsciously going along with the resistance and remaining a person whose pain never abates; in whom the need to escape the pain in fact gets worse.
You can consciously work to let go of the certainty that you have reached the moment of a limitation. "But I don't know what to do, and I don't think there's anything further." Whose "I" is it that doesn't think there is anything further? It's the latent self that was activated in the moment of resistance. Now you see that the "I" that thinks there isn't any further to go is the fact and the proof that you won't go any further -- if you remain identified with it.
So you bear it. You bear what that "I" warns you is going to happen. You bear the restrictive energy that is produced as it resists its own images. You bear its manifestation. Each time you do that, just like you bear the manifestation of a muscle not wanting to go past itself, there is a transition, a release, and a discovery that it was not the end. It was just something telling you it was the end. Then you find out that you have a limitless, endless story written inside of you that God gave you, that He is trying to help you fulfill, if you will just keep going.
