Enter into the Estate of the All

Our attitude towards our psychological aches and pains is adversarial. We interpret it as a personal punishment and assault upon us. Our bodies are filled with various bacteria and viruses but unless the body is out of balance an ailment does not occur. Our pains are a reflection of life forms not a punishment. All these life forms want to live their lives in us. All forms of life want to exist. They don't want conditions to change. No condition exists apart from a relationship. All this is going on in us and we are against these perceived impositions. We are the conglomerations of all of this activity. As viruses, organs and cell live within us so do we live within something else in the same way. Everything is in scale.

Human beings are unhappy and can't remember what it is that they need in the moment being cruel or the emptiness of trying to get the approval of others. No matter what we get we are still alone and afraid. We don't see the moment where we fall into a funk or get angry. This talk is about what it means to see, to be aware of oneself in the totality of what is happening, in the middle of our pain.

We are unawake to ourselves. The pearl of great price is here inside of us. Where is here? It is what we are within (God, Truth, and Reality). The Kingdom of Heaven is within that. The reason we can't remember ourselves is because we are not aware. We need to begin to remember the Estate of the All! When we come back to ourselves we don't have to think about being cruel or what to do we are part of the whole. As soon as we are not aware everything is outside of us. But nothing is outside of us everything is transpiring within us. Everything is here but we don't know where here is.

In order to awaken to ourselves there has to be something greater than the mechanical movement that prohibits us from remembering what we want. Everything in the body has its own memory, our muscles and heart, etc. We feel pain but the pain we feel is not "I" but what one says to the pain. We can't remember the estate of the all because we are in the estate of the small. If we look into a mirror, we see ourselves. It is the same psychologically. When we look into the world, what we see is dependent on our perception of it. If we don't like what we see it is born from the content of what we are. The "I" that doesn't like what it sees forms an "I". This "I" that doesn't like what it sees has no independent existence of its own till it reacts and forms a self that sits outside and blames something outside of itself for the pain it feels.

We don't see the transition of day into night of the seasons changing. They just take place. The music of the spheres is always changing and produces a series of changes that are not apart from the awareness of them. The awareness of life and the life of awareness is not two different things. We are locked up in the estate of the small judging everything that is happening. Me didn't exist until a set of conditions that produce it. The whole of reality has to be embraced and understood and remembered and awakened inside of oneself. When we are aware we can catch the formation of self.

The stuff of "I" is always born out of a reaction. It is a form of identification. I am stirred by a song from the 60's and go back into torment of never having been accepted. There is more than this. We are created to live in our fathers Estate of the All. All of the pain and frustration of this planet has to do with a fear born out of forgetfulness. Trying to find something to rectify our lives is stealing our lives. It was fashioned out of a reaction to resisting life. It is made up of memory and conditioned experience of what we think we need to be free of the pain. We search our memory and explain to ourselves what our pains are instead of remembering.

We are what we remember moment to moment. Remember yourself and be aware of the mechanical "I" awakened under conditions and don't give it life. The awareness of it teaches us not to be a part of it. Negative reactions are part of the estate of the small. Disconnect yourself with it by coming awake. It is in us but we are not it. Stay awake and your life will become ordered differently. Remember consciously that all cells have memory but you are not it. Living in the Estate of the All you will find the life that God wants you to have.