The Will That is the Light is the Right Will

When we fall down we forget how we got there. But if a person is going to really change they have to realize they have found themselves in the same fix again because they have failed to learn the lesson. If something dramatic doesn't happen they will never change. In the movie the "Knight's Tale" a young peasant boy wished to become a knight but because if the position he was born in, it seemed impossible because only the people who were born to the upper class could be a knight. He asked his father, "Is it possible to change my stars? Do I have to remain what I am?" In order to change our stars we can no longer make excuses for our lives and have to begin to investigate them.

We wind up where we are because it is an act of will or willingness. We desire a person to be the way we hoped they would be and our will puts us in that relationship with them. Then they deceive us and we feel betrayed. We wound up here because of an act of our own will. What governed my will was my hope and wish that everything will work out. What is will? It is a collective conversion of energies that move one to do something, also, inertia or desire. Will is the outcome of desire seeded into us from our past. We get an idea, move it through life, obtain it but it is always empty. We need a new will. It is clear that our will is in the dark. We need to be governed in the light by the light.

Where do we find this new kind of will, one that will protect us from our own dark will? We have to align ourselves with another order of being. There is order in the structure of everything. Take a vine. There is the root system that is connected to the earth and then the trunk, branches and then the vine. The root system interacts with the earth in way that is impossible for the branch or vine to because of its relationship with it.

There is a scale of being inside of us. In order to change our relationship with this scale of being we have to change the order of our content. Content contains quality and force. Content determines being. The difference between a sheep and a tiger is the qualities that dominate their being. So the order of content in a being determines its nature. The level of being that one has determines its relationship in the scale of being and governs its will. Inside of us is a scale of being containing everything from a low end of being, dark destructive forces to a high end. Where our being sites in this scale determines our reward - our place in the scale of being. The will active in us all the time chooses where it is on the scale. We need to be under a different influence that can choose properly.

There can't be two # 1's in our lives. The will that serves the darkness that pushes us around can't ever make us happy. There has to be a first love. We have to put ourselves in relationship with that. How do we work at changing our being and what we will?

If a person points a telescope in space and misses the trajectory by a millimeter they will miss the mark. When we start from a wrong will we end up in the dark. When we hear an inward 5 alarm bell the first action we should take is to rely on the light instead of turning to the will of the alarm. Everything depends upon the initial action - what one brings into the event - not what one does to be free from the alarm. Not our will - what we know or do but the first action is to bring the event, our reaction into the light. Don't be the vine of this branch. Don't follow mechanically the darkness has produced. Change your relationship in the scale of being by sacrificing the level of your being now (your content at the moment). Bringing your reaction into the light by remembering yourself and going quiet, than the Light becomes your guide and puts you in relationship with a new being who will be your protector. When we begin in the light we arrive by it. Take your reactions into a new order of understanding and you will find your way home.