We all suffer from self-compromising behaviors; they may be physical addictions, or tendencies to complain, or worry, or judge others, or regret the past. We suffer because we believe these behaviors are "us," and that we must do something about them in order to feel whole again. So we wind up judging or hating ourselves for our imagined "failures." But these "failures" are not us. They belong to a level of consciousness that we're blind to, that convinces us that it is the "whole" of ourselves. But no one part can rule the whole. To be truly whole, we need a new order of Will. Work to be a holy witness to the whole of ourselves. See both the nature that is "for this" and that is "against that." Remember that a pleasure unconsciously picked up is inseparable from the pain that follows it. Don't try to "not be something." Instead see and bear the whole of the revelation. If we learn to suffer the presence of this lower consciousness, we'll no longer be tempted into entering its world.