Part 1:
If putting yourself first had any real power to grant you true liberty – a way to make you content, then – for all you've given to yourself – shouldn't you be happy and free by now?
Part 2:
Asking God to help you -- without first doing the interior work of seeing and admitting the truth of yourself to yourself -- is like sending someone else to church or temple for you to pray for your transfiguration.
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