The answers to your questions are less important than being aware of yourself as you ask them; Nothing can be understood outside of the perpetuity of the moment; You can't transform yourself, you can only invite transformation; You can't enter into higher understanding until it shows you that you were apart from it; Silence is not the absence of things; Resistance is innate to existence; First awakening, then dying to yourself, then rebirth; It's what you do with what you're given that determines your spiritual evolution.