Part 1
There is no out-running any unwanted sense of self... any more than the dark shadows of a wind-swept tree in the late-afternoon sun can escape its own branches that first creates them, and then casts them out into the world.
Part 2
Your True Self is not in-between “this or that” thought, let alone the moment they define and confine, accordingly. What is Divine is creator, creation, and the fulfillment of Time itself.
