I have so many thoughts and ideas about what lies ahead, spiritually speaking, and whether or not I will achieve what I imagine for myself. Do you have any suggestions that might help me sort through all of these questions I have about myself?
Our task, yours and mine, as people who want to realize the Life Divine, is to increasingly recognize the difference between thinking (about dying to ourselves) and actually taking the interior actions that facilitates our wish (to be free). All forms of spiritual speculation, regardless of how good or real it may feel in the moment -- (to that lower level self busy spinning this web) -- are a waste; in truth, such imaginings, along with the strong sense of self it produces, are one of the ways in which our lower nature steals our attention in order to deflect it (and our awareness) away from what is actually unfolding within us in the moment. It is hard, no question about it, to begin the process of "putting away childish things" if, for no other reason, than we are attached to them, and don't know (yet) much of any other form of reality. But try to see this for yourself: what does it prosper a person to "wonder" about why the ocean is so deep, how one got "there" -- or why one has to answer one's need to explore it -- if that same time (of walking along the shoreline) could be used to walk into the waters, and learning to swim in them...and once therein...to see for oneself all there is to know, directly, about why the ocean (of spirit) is as it is? Dive (in)...we can (and must) do better than dreaming; dreams are of the finite world, and hold only empty promises, never the realized fulfillment of awakening to Real Life.