Do you want to be a new person? Well, you're certainly not going to be a new person when you keep repeating the level of consciousness that literally runs itself into the ground... and where, incidentally, at the end of your physical life you have nothing whatsoever to show for your existence on this planet... any more than a lion has something to show for its existence. It served nature, it consumed nature, and then it was consumed by nature. But that is not our nature! It's only a part of it, and it's the part of our nature that has produced purposes, plans, and ideals taken from a world that promises, "This is what it will be like when you get 'there.' Everything will be great!" So, we are ceaselessly judging at our life based on what has to happen so that we can maintain this balance called "my greatness," "my kingdom."
All our pain in life is connected to a nature that clings to the purposes and false ideas we've imagined will perfect us. Our primary purpose now is the purpose of this world -- the purpose of a nature asleep to itself that lives in a world where it's me and you, dog eat dog. By contrast, our God-given purpose is to see that is all false purpose and to begin to die to it. We can begin to be present and understand: "My true purpose is to recognize that the appearance of some anxiety is always accompanied by my mind showing me something to do in order to change it. My new task isn't going to do something to fix it. My task is to just be where I am with what I am, doing what I am in that moment."
If I can learn to be what I am in that moment, to do what I am in that moment, then there's no place to go. There's nothing to fix. There's no condition that's a life-and-death threat. There's just the understanding that I am being offered Real Life in that moment of revelation if I give up the false life that thrills me, but that doesn't give me anything but another race to run.
When I can begin to understand that my task in any given moment is to complete the moment -- not to complete something that my mind says the moment is about, but to complete the moment itself -- the moment itself is a seamless revelation. It is what is acting on me, and it is what it is acting upon. If I don't start with the understanding that what is acting on me and my experience of it is the same as what I am in that moment, I'll never experience a presence there that shows me the right place to stay is with the revelation of what I am.
Test for yourself those moments where -- for example -- fear comes in and gets you to start rushing. If you make a deliberate effort to stop rushing, you can challenge the nature that creates the condition that it says you depend upon. You do not depend upon any condition you can imagine. Your life -- your real life -- depends upon seeing through the nature that imagines a life so it can steal yours.
Be what you are. Don't try to fix the moment; complete it on the spot. If you do that, the consciousness that creates an imagined place and time begins to lose its grip, and when it loses its grip, you begin to gain a foothold in another level of consciousness that can't be deceived the way you are presently deceived.