Every human being on this planet is created to love something. The problem is that, for the vast majority of us, the part of us intended to love something was crushed right out of the gate. That part of us was crushed by the idea that "I must become something special", which requires that I must get all stirred up to do something that I have no love for. We have parts of us that demand that we do what they say in order to become someone who is highly regarded.
The only way that we will come to discover what it is that we love is when we begin to understand the difference between what we need to do and what we want to do. There are things that we all must do to fulfill our proper responsibilities as good householders, but what we must do need not include keeping in place the idea that we must become something special.
It is possible that there's nothing more beautiful than sincere self-investigation. If we want to become true human beings we must make an honest examination of our lives and see that every road that we have motivated ourselves to take has turned out to be a dead-end. We are intended in this life to be profitable, but the true meaning of profitable is "to ascend toward the good", not to acquire goods by which we ascend socially.
We try to motivate ourselves to go to work because that work, whatever form it may take, is all we have and encompasses the entire meaning of our lives at that moment. As we are presently, we feel obligated to fulfill responsibilities that were never ours in the first place. By the grace of God, we can have a completely new understanding of why we are here. It is possible to do what we must do everyday, and yet not look to complete ourselves through what we are doing.
Do what you have to do, but be a real human being while you are doing it. A real man or woman is never just doing what they are doing; their hearts and minds are always being touched by that which wants them to love it. And gradually a person can discover with greater and greater clarity what his or her true passion is. We all have had hints at what our true passion is, but that passion has been rejected because it clearly wasn't going to make me someone special according to the world's standards.
It is not a given, but you have within you the possibility of true spirituality. Spirit can begin to give you what you need to do and who you need to be with. The love that you long for does not require that you motivate yourself to find it, but it does ask that you learn to be alone with yourself and remember what you truly long for. Then in that relationship, something of real value can come to you.
